new beginnings

my friend wrote this, a couple months ago at the beginning of school at a time when things weren't going so well. i printed it off and spent my calculus class reading it:

"I've been at my wrost. my lowest. I'm not reading my Bible, I'm not really praying, I'm not relying on God, I'm not I'm not I'm not...

That is what the world screams into your ear. You're worthless. All you are is a failure because of this or that.

But the Bible says that something like even if mountains shake and valleys move, God's love for YOU will always be there, be the same, be.

You were created in His image. Imagine that. You were created in His image. You are an image of God. the perfect one and pure and holy one. You are one of His sons. His son. Just think about that. The God who created the universe and you're His son. Unfathomable. I still don't get it. God's love is boundless and just take a second to let Him love on you. It really brightens the day. there becomes a bounce in the step of the weary.

God loves you. a prince never hangs his head in shame in the Father's house. You are a prince, so just let God love on you. that's all God really calls us to be. Sure, you're supposed to do this and that, but all God wants is for us to love and be loved by Him. That's it. To love and be loved by God, by Jersus, who was nailed to the cross for you.

hopefully, this can be some kind of encouragement for you. I know that's hard. I know that you just want it all to end. But that's why God pulls us through these trials - to make us stronger in Him and for us to rely more and more on Him.

God bless. People are praying for you and never forget that prayer changes things"

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I went to the Burn on saturday with my best friend Billy, which was pretty much a nonstop (40 hours) prayer and worship session. it was amazing. being somewhere like there is pretty much sustenance in God, and walking out the doors feels like walking into a world where you will be challenged and things will get hard again, but being in that church feels like you can be yourself and no one will condemn you. to make a long story short, billy and i made a pact that we wouldn't leave. we said that we might go through school and talk to people and run races and play basketball, but we wouldn't leave that place of worship. we would maintain that atmosphere of God and "come as you are" and "God lets us do His will and His is the only opinion that matters."

it gets hard. it was, at least, for him today, and i don't doubt that i will be feeling it sometime soon. but as for today, man... celebration. it feels like i just got saved again. God made it so easy. lust didn't even try and even homework wasn't that bad and i actually paid attention in physics. God made it so easy. it won't always be like this, but as for today, i know i am blessed beyond all belief.