interesting dilemma + catching up

again, not much of a serious or aimed/loaded post. just writing to pass the time.

i should be working on a paper right now. but this is ridiculous.

times like these make me wish i had a girlfriend, and i don't even know why. it's ridiculous. maybe because it's a lot easier than God. i don't think anybody really reads this besides billy, i would be surprised to know if anybody else really read this.

this is ridiculous.

eyes on God. in the storm.

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wrote that on the ninth when i was back in tulsa. seven page paper due today, stayed up until five working on it, three hours of sleep, finished it in my calculus class. yeah, i guess that's pretty bad. it really is grace. not very sleepy. you know what i want to say?

i listen to the song Here I am by Shaun Groves, and i want to say "let's go do something big. let's change the world. let's stop sitting around and make a difference." and the funniest thing is that the most we could ever do is be living sacrifices, to surrender. to give away impulse for comfort, popularity, and security in our own corruptible riches and live for love instead, a love that few will ever be able to see and even fewer ever able to understand. and that leads me to think "let's let go," even though it isn't something i exactly want to say.

[man. i was talking to jojo about relationships last night for like an hour. he said i should watch Friends. man, he knows a lot.]

i'll try to post something up here with more depth or interest later sometime.