turns out Norman iced over last week, scoring us 2 1/2 days off of school. we had our very first EPIC prayer meeting a couple of nights ago. i don't know if you could call it a vision, but there's this big, open area at OU at the Sarkey's Center that is made completely of bricks and has this big fountain, so i thought it would be cool if we went there and prayed sometime. and though it was cold, we got a couple of people there, split off and prayed on our own for about 15 minutes, and then came back and prayed together. and there was actually a really good response to it. there was honestly a lot of grace. eyes being opened, chains being broken
we're starting to really look forward to this Central Conference in Dallas this weekend. i pray that God moves in a way that only He does, that would be so shocked and awed at the beauty of His majesty and the humility of His sacrifice and the magnificence and boundlessness of His love. a lot is happening, and i'm glad that i get to be a part of it. even if Epic totally dissipates, it will be nice to still simply be a part of a Christian community, where we were able to support each other and grow together. Epic isn't the end all, but i'm glad that it is something that possibly does have much bigger implications. and i guess it's that much more important to be focused on God, to be proud of God, to find life in God, and to never let Epic be god.
things are slowly falling together for a large group tomorrow night, and when i say falling together, i really mean it. we didn't start planning soon enough, so i'm not sure who exactly is speaking or when/where we are meeting. just that something is happening tomorrow night, and it will be something good.
i'm still struggling with being productive - hanging out much more than doing work. but today is my first day tutoring, so i will hopefully be forced to have much more structure, and i will be able to get my schoolwork done. things have been happening lately - i guess with Epic, and with my best friend, and with this guy that i had lunch with over the weekend. the things that i am hearing, the people that i get to be around - i really feel like the luckiest guy in the world. how could i not be content? only if i take my eyes off Him. talk about blessing. but i should boast in my weakness. be sober.
anyways, that's how things have been going lately. Epic is still going, i'm talking to people about personal things, others are talking about returning towards proximity with God. and i am really blessed. and i'm undeserving, but you couldn't possibly know how undeserving i really am. that is what's so amazing about grace. i deserve hell. when things get bad, i'll probably lose focus, faithfulness, momentum. i'll start freaking out, pointing fingers, complaining. even when things are all right, my eyes still wander and my heart is still prodigal. i regard my reputation too much, am unwilling to show reckless, sacrificial love. my thoughts are malicious. i judge all too often, question and doubt all too often, am ignorant and unengaged all too often. just like Samson or Jacob might come off as a jerk (or Paul), i am the same way.
the only thing i got going for me is God, and that He is holding onto me. it is certainly not the other way around.
anyways, hope you guys are having a good time. got a semi-busy week, more Epic stuff, a lot of excitement and anticipation for the weekend. stir up and consume, Lord. thanks for reading, God bless.
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