2 Hours and Every Little Thing

sophomore year, I think, DFC went to this huge Delirious? concert at Victory, and that was sorta before I was a real Christian and I didn't even really like Delirious. It turns out that they're an amazing worship band that is sorta revolutionary in the UK and if you ever get a chance to see them live, I assure you they will blow you away. i think the people in front of me were getting saved, and i was trying so hard to lift my hands in worship, but i couldn't for some reason. i think...even then, i knew there was some kind of significance to lifting my hands to God, and i didn't want to do it for the wrong reasons, even if everyone around me was doing it.

anyways, at this Delirious? concert (yes, there's a question mark at the end of the band name), they played this song called Every Little Thing, and the chorus goes "Every little thing's gonna be all right" over and over again. That's it. and so they played this chorus over and over and over again, and the lead singer talked in the middle and then he would sing it over and over again, and i think God was working on peoples' hearts because this is such a paradigm shifter because we don't really feel like secure people and now we get this promise that every thing's gonna work out, and this seems contradictory because it doesn't seem at all like every little thing has been all right in our lives. and the thing about that is - every little thing will end up all right. but there's a good chance this won't look anything like what we want.

for me, i was going to go to Rice. actually, i was going to Duke and double major electrical engineering and computer science, and i remember this vividly and i was going to go to all of the basketball games because i think Duke basketball is arbitrarily awesome. but then i wanted to go to Rice and not Duke, and it ended up that i didn't get into Rice. and i probably got mad at God about it. but you know what? every little thing's still all right. i was listening to this sermon from Donald Miller yesterday night about how discipline is all about love. that we can't have everything we want because we don't know what's best for us - and yet, God does, and so He's like a father to us. making sure that we get what we want, more than what we cry for and complain about not getting. and we probably won't like it at all, because it hurts when we want something we don't get. but every little thing ends up all right. more than all right. we're heirs of the kingdom, the one that can't be shaken.

and on a more personal note, i had a good night last night, with my 2 hour meeting that ended up closer to 4. and the thing is...there's no real promise that things are going to go anyway that i want them to go. there's no promise or agreement that i get what i want. but now i know - things are going to be okay. no matter what happens to each of us and even if nothing happens between us, things are going to end up okay. she still cares. and things are going to be okay. well, it was a good night. every little thing's gonna be all right.

on another note, i'm gonna start compiling all of these blog posts and some of the things on my computer and see if i can get a book going or something. some of the things i've written are repulsivelly horrible to me, but i looked back at some of my old posts up here and some on my computer that i hadn't known i had written and i think they would read well with a little bit of proofreading and fine-tuning. and today's my last day at the internship, so i got a good while before i have to do anything again. hope everything's going well with everyone.